Day 5

The gift offering I gave to Munay-Ki

www.51in51days.blogspot.com is a blog about the journey of getting my life back 

on track in the 51 days leading up to my 51st birthday on January 13, 2013.

DAY 5

The language of friendship is not words but meanings. 

                                                     Henry David Thoreau 

For the last 4 days, I have gotten up early and wanted to write my blog. Today I had to force myself, and in some way, even remind myself I needed to write at all. I am really upset and my mind is preoccupied with something that happened last night. Yes, I went to the Munay-Ki Shaman event. It was interesting, and intriguing. I've been to meditations and energy work before, and I want to go back again, but that is not what upset me. 

I helped a friend yesterday for most of the day driving all the way down to Santa Monica from Camarillo and back.  The day started at 1:30pm, and ended at around 10pm.  This RT took about 4 1/2 hours including the 2 hours I had to wait for her while she got a medical procedure done. After that we went to Munay-ki together. At the end of the night, after the Munay-ki ceremony, she thought I had gone outside, and I inadvertently overheard her bad mouthing me to her friends from Munay-Ki. So, I'm upset to say the least. Today's blog will be cut short unfortunately. I feel betrayed, used and manipulated. If she did not like me, she should have paid for a fu^&*( chauffeur. Anyway, I am writing her a letter about how I feel. I do not want this woman as a friend any longer. But, I am hurt, and I need to get some feelings off my chest in a constructive manner. FYI,  I did ask her for an apology, and she refused to give me one. 

But this did give me food for thought. How do I find true friends that are not users? I have not figured this out yet even though I am 50 years old. I struggle with this, though I try to be a good friend. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Sorry, this is not what you expected. Tomorrow I will be back to my old self. This is all I have for today. 

Until tomorrow and Day 6 of my blog....

Elissa is a freelance writer & graphic designer somewhere in Los Angeles.